A plea for help from an isolated dad
i don’t know what to say I just need to vent.
I have two boys 3 & 6 months. I’m well aware I’m in the trenches. However I am also aware I am drowning.
My relationship has been deteriorating to the point I’m now on the couch and not even being spoken to like a partner or a father. I love my partner more than anything (apart from my kids) I feel she has post partum but she will not accept that and is so defensive whenever I broach the subject. And goes on the offensive. Chastising every small mistake I do or thing I forget.
I try my best at everything I do. Cause that’s all I can do is just try my best. But to be reminded day in day out that my best is not good enough is really wearing on me. I work myself to the bone but am thankfully able to be home to see my kids and put them to bed.
I’m seeing a therapist soon and hopefully they can give me some clarity on how to process my feelings and emotions better.
I have no one around me. My parents are on the other side of the world. I do not get on with my partners family. I have “friends” but none of them have kids so they don’t understand the issues we as dads have. I just feel so alone in this journey. No one to share my wins with, whenever I do tell people and they just don’t get it or they don’t care.
Im sorry for the wall of self pity and misery but I’m just so lost and alone in this all and don’t know where else to turn to.