u/SlimShadieeeeer

i type this while in the middle on a crisis so sorry if i am raw but fuck it all i am tired of these mind Games and have been in a very low point of life for the longest if idont type this now i wont have any enegryy left to do it later. first off i have been medicated since i was a small child with multiple drugs every day every lunch so i have never had any kind of normal teenage to not say everyday i do everything as possible to heal brain damage as fast as i can, but i am late and it still persists every day and is making my will to keep myself alive thin. since i finished highschool, i have been dedicating more on me but my social is destroyed, barely anyone supports me on anything and i got a very serious case of social anxiety nobody around me validates. i have had a (not fully proven btw) diagnosis of epilepsy years ago, but now after looking after my own experiences and my family lying to me via infantilization and gaslight i do not trust it. for years, i had zero social connections, medicated multiple times of day and everyday had like 2-3 hours of sleep, so even if what they say is true or not, crashing out and almost dying at school feel reasonable for me and i feel tired of everyone my family tryna guilt trip me in the least honest ways possible saying "you got epilepsy", "no you dont know" NO I DO NOT. why am i supposed to listen to unapologetic reckless liars. i have found all the truth.

now back to the real game like 2 months ago i got crazy as fuck since i was heavily suicidal so i acted *slightly* more like an asshole than usual (gotta clarify i am overall doing the best i can do. i do not do drugs, i do not drink alcohol, i have never commited a crime) yet suddenly my mother acting like a drama queen and the fucking gambling addicted loser of my father tryna scare me like if i was a fucking child (or a teen drugged AGAINST their will for years) . i am all alone and have been depressed for months but my father hasnt been a father for me since 2020, now he aint even a dad after last time i saw him. i was at my lowest ever yet being honest and he used it as a chance to damage me the worst ways possible. and after that, i have heard him tell my mother "hahah what a fool he believed that" so my innocence and any respect for him died right there. so i refused to interact with him since then. my mother tried to force me but i laughed at her face. yall motherfuxkas think they still will control to me after making get close to lifelong trauma? worst off i cant even talk this to any "friend" because i dont know anyone enough and it hurts me because i dont even believe when anyone would tell me "it's your fault" because i have gone though enough crisis and loneliness to keep it up like this.

holy shit where am i going am i spiraling. ok so suddenly my uncle, mother, and cousin come to my room by force even if door was shutdown claiming my father who i havent talked to since that day falsely sued me, a minor who has never commited a crime, for "sexually and physically assaulting my mother" to send me to a juvenile prison. i deep down cant trust it. no matter how many flying monkeys they throw in. they have all proven to be liars and broke my trust, dont care to hurt me in the vilest ways, treat me both like if i am white color but owe them black color and have NEVER apologized on anything . And NEVER will,. even try to put my shoes on them feet. when i asked them for a proof of my dads sue them handed me a paper heavily modified and full of mistypes claiming to be written by a policemen. when i pointed it out my mother tried to force hug me but acted like if i was wrong by pushing her out, these are my boundaries. these apes think i still am retarded because they shitted on my clothes for years then now blame me my shirts stinkz . they NEVER knew about the evolution. fuckkass ignorants. fuck fuck FUCK FUCK everyone chasing me tryna scare me and saying "i am wrong" when i am not, i am tired of being called a demon while being a victim of what should be classified abuse. i wish i could at least just call up someone and tell them how i feel while i take a walk but i am going insane alone. why am i being rational to such biased people. holy shit am i an hypocrite? how do i runaway from these people if i am already in the rage stage of depression. right now my face is full of scars and my door is locked by a chair as i listen to yeezus at max volume to not hear my mother bitching around. somebody help me

is tyler music on femboy inspired by late reg

mine fully biased mmlp1 tier. .

my (M17) whole mother family is lying to me about my absent father falsely suing me. i can't trust them anymore no matter how many people try to tell me how should i feel. i feel like i am not just being paranoid