Tfmr at 24 weeks, don’t know how to carry on
Had a tfmr at 24 weeks in July. I’ve never experienced such grief. I have a LC 2 years old and so many times I’ve cried in front of her. I feel like I’m not giving her my best self, I’m always sad. If I do smile it’s like I’m pretending. I don’t feel like meeting anyone on weekends but if I don’t I spiral. My kid is the only reason I’m not completely breaking apart. The first month was really tough but somehow my brain became hopeful that we’ll soon become pregnant again (God will surely bless us soon after going through hell) but we’ve tried 2 cycles with no luck. And when I got my period this time, I had the most difficult day in 3 months. My husband is in it with me but I still feel lonely like nobody understands this. Therapist wasn’t much help, I don’t feel like discussing with friends, talking to mom doesn’t help. I just want this phase to be over.