i kinda just feel trapped
I don't wanna sound dramatic or smth, but idk what to do. I've struggled with this for over 2 years now and its really impacted my mental health. I always fall into the same cycle of daydreaming of characters while i fall asleep and right after i wake up for hours. During the day i do a little, but feel like they deserve a time i can properly focus on them. I find myself excited to go to bed, waiting for the day to be over just to daydream.
then ill have those moments where the daydreams don't feel as real, they feel almost like a chore sometimes. The depressive episodes get worse since my coping mechanism starts failing me. My motivation and energy disappear, it can get bad.
eventually ill latch onto new characters and start over again. Any efforts I've made to stop have failed me and I'm out of ideas. I'm very introverted so talking to someone is out of the question. I'm stuck in this awful loop.