u/SmokeshowOhio

I used to be Bi sexual. I used to be attracted to both genders and now I'm not attracted to anyone. I'm so broken I can't allow anyone to get close to me. Not even in small ways. It feels like expectation and that feels like obligation. I just wanted to be loved. Now? Now I just don't care. I don't want to be known. I don't want to allow anyone anywhere near me. The idea of having sex with anyone feels humiliating. It's like I have power and people think sleeping with me will allow them to take my power. I'm alone all the time. I self isolate and wish to fall asleep and never wake up. I'm so done here. It was all a lie. I'm damaged beyond help and I don't want this anymore.