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BFN on 14dpo/dpiui, this morning. Tested using easy@home based on recommendations in this sub.
This was my second IUI. Unable to process thoughts..
I’m 32F, husband 35M.
IUI report looked normal. 4% morphology, 94% motility. 21mm follicle.

Few days back I got to know a friend of mine in TTC was pregnant. While I’m happy for her no doubt, I just feel disheartened that it’s not happening to me. And I’m left behind in the race of life.

I don’t know what to do.. should I change my doc? Go to IVF? Or just give up any hope of ever conceiving. I can’t even type this without crying

I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I don’t want to go to work and fake smile and mingle with anyone. I don’t want to talk to my family or husband.
I don’t know … I’m sorry I’m unable to articulate also what I’m feeling or going through ..
I just don’t know what to do or how to move forward from here

My younger brother is lost in life. And it pains me that after tons of advice … nothing seems to be working.

He’s 28M. Did BTech + MTech in Mechanical Engineering with Manufacturing Design. (I strongly advised against Mechanical as I felt the job market would be tough)

Anyway after that he went to pursue masters in industrial Product Design in Netherlands.

He got decent GPA but did not learn any native European languages so he didn’t qualify the pre requisite of big MNCs like BMW or GE.

Bohot haath pair maarne k baad he got a job in startup where he worked for ~10months on probation which did not get converted.

With visa expiring, he returned to India.

Now his major and expertise is either probably niche that he hardly gets calls for interview. And agar kuch 2-4 calls aa rahe toh after multiple rounds of interview and sharing portfolio and doing assignments.. he doesn’t crack it. He’s tried LinkedIn, naukri, company portals, referrals, cold emails everything.

My parents and I have tried helping him the best but I feel he’s become lazy?

Like go out hustle karo? 20k/pm ki job bhi nai lag rahi. Kuch govt exam de do? Wo sab nai karna usko.

Now he was given an idea to do MBA. Probably so that he can pivot and make a decent living.

He stuck to it for 6 months and only studied. Stopped applying for jobs! My dad was not in favor of it.

Cut to it now, he’s planning to join MBA now.

My concern is … MBA k baad bhi kaunsi easily job lag rahi. Personality develop karo, be extrovert .. he’s … ghar ghusdu for the lack of better word.

Does not know to drive 2 or 4 wheeler. Does not (or probably does, at this point I don’t know) care that dad took 70L loan. My dad is in govt job. We don’t have generational wealth.

My parents are nearing 60. At an age where he should be the support for them… he’s.. just there. Khud usko sahara chahiye.

I feel he’s wasting his life. I don’t know how to help him. My parents have done all that they can.. at the end of the day, you can only take horse to the pond, but cannot make him drink.

I’ve motivated him, scolded him,

Advised him.. got angry at him. I’ve cried out of desperation in front of him.

His life is not yet turning around and I’m worried honestly. He just keeps saying ki mera time kharaab chal rha hai. Mai hi bewakoof hu.. mere saath kuch accha nai hota.

3 saal se kharaab !? Tum anokhe ho duniya mein?

How are others doing ? This self spiralling is of no use. You can’t keep blaming circumstances.

Please please advice 🙏🏼