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So, having my surgery mapping scan at the end of May. Last mri in January the tumor was "1.5 x 1.0 cm solid mass lateral midpole left kidney with postcontrast enhancement. This does enhance following IV contrast infusion. On the prior CT scan, Hounsfield units of 78, up from 28." So, looking at this I can say that it looks like cancer. It is probably stage 1 rcc.

I keep telling everyone that I caught it early, its no big deal. Cut it out and ill be fine. Up to this point in trying to help my family and friends feel better, I feel like Ive convinced myself that it really isnt cancer. As I get closer to surgery, my subconscious is pushing me to face reality that I do have cancer.

Has anyone lived with the denial to finally have it hit them when they are at the point of taking action?

Found the tumor in January via CT. Followed up with MRI and oncologist. Planned for a 3 month monitoring to deal with other health problems with CT in May. Knew I needed to schedule CT, well they called me yesterday to schedule for May 29th. I guess this is for mapping and surgery soon after scan. Over the past 2 months, Ive been able to emotionally distance myself from it but now its more real. Thank you all for your contributions to this space, its helped me to make more informed decisions. Hang in there everyone.