i did the worst thing you could ever think of
i got sooo drunk last night and did coke which i’ve literally never done before. maybe once like 5 years ago but i don’t do hard drugs. except for last night. i got sooo drunk with my cousin and his friend and did i think 2 bumps (idfk what it’s called) and have no memory of what happened after. apparently i tried to FUCK MY FUCKING COUSIN. i don’t remember any of this but i woke up and my aunt basically told me i came onto him and made him EXTREMELY uncomfortable that he couldn’t even be in the same house as me. for context im 20 and my cousin is in his early 30s. NEVER IN MY LIFE have i EVER had feelings for him or thought of him in that way and he’s literally gay too. and i’m so stressed because i have no idea what i did to his friend because i left all my shit there and woke up with no memory so i’m assuming i started acting insane there and he just had to get me out. i can tell my aunt is so upset with me and my cousin still won’t talk to me. this is literally awful holy fuck.