u/Soapsou

Disclaimer: I'm calling it "kriya" because doing some googling gave me that term.

I'm no stranger to these as I used to do some somatic processing stuff that I actually found quite helpful. If someone was to see me during, they might think I was having a seizure lol. It can get quite violent and becomes a full body thing.

So the impulse to move during the tapes is back. If I ignore it, my brain starts wandering and thinking and takes me away from the tape. If I consciously move, I'm shifting nonstop and I fidget. If I just let myself move unconsciously, see above. These are not small movements or little finger or eye twitches either (although they might start that way.)

I'm just curious because I'm finding different information. Some says it's suppressed energy/higher energy being allowed to wake up, some say it's the nervous system trying to protect me from something painful I've pushed down, and some say it's simply a lack of discipline and training in my practice.

I'm just curious if others have had this (again, these move into big, body shaking, head slamming, arm waving movements that take more effort to stop than to allow.) I did search symptoms and no, I do not think it is medical. Is it just how you are, or did they eventually stop? Either way I'm planning on putting on a free flow tape and letting myself flop around today. Will see what happens :)

Hey sags, I said I'd update after making a post asking for going full delulu into sagittarius energy to help with a chronic hip injury where exercise and science was failing me (jupjter/Sag rules hips and the hips don't lie.) You'll find it if you search the sub, having trouble linking.

Well I haven't managed to implement too many of your suggestions (beyond stomping, singing and listening to the rhe orphic hymn to jove and trying to be mindful of my fear - pisces sun.) What's very interesting is the day after making the post and getting a number of replies, I got a "ping" and was able to sort of map out the feeling of my low back, hips, and shitty leg, and was able to find some *extremely* specific points that were either very weak, overly dominant and one that was also covertly injured but the surrounding muscles had adapted and compensated to hide it for a long time.

Neither myself nor any of my practicioners had been able to do that before. I was able to find some very specific exercises and the change was almost immediate. I suspect this is the beginning of real recovery for me.

So yeah, I'm now convinced yall bring luck and sending your energy to folks can give a bump of that Sag wisdom if the person is open to receive it. So if you don't mind, I may hang around here to try and absorb some of that zest for life.

And also - thanks :)

EDIT: I got the exercise down. I'm here seeking vibes and delulu where reality had failed me

No it isn't relationship advice don't worry.

So this is probably gonna sound hella ridiculous but I'm at the point where I don't care.

I've had a recurring hip injury for YEARS That's stupid painful and has "no cause" and flares at random in spite of exercise and physio. Welp I'm insane enough to try some "astrology" remedies, and since Sag/jupiter rules the hips, and my main association with Sag is yall are some funny fucking humans, i decided to start giggling for no reason at Shitty the Hip.

Wouldn't you know it, as long as I'm giggling, even if its fake, the hip actually feels better.

So, my fishy (pisces) butt is asking for some help in returning to classic jupitarian energy as an experiment. If I was to live life with more Sagittarian energy, what would life look like for me?

So far I have:

- less caring what others think (difficult)

- more pursuing my own authentic interests regardless of fucks of others (also difficult)

- remove verbal filter

- carry bow and arrow. Wear fuzzy pants

Thank you in advance to folks willing to share. This ain't medical advice ur giving btw just in case of worry. This is just #÷~vibes~÷#

I will report back for science

So first of all, I'm not gonna do anything or hurt myself, and I do NOT want to. Im also gonna look at getting back into therapy. Just wanna get that out there.

I do consider this a success, because I realized a couple days ago that I've been "masking" over a lot of suppressed rage. And then today processing this, that that anger, anxiety, and almost constant pit in my chest has been covering a desire to end it all. It explains a LOT of my life patterns and has probably been there for a significant chunk of my life, apart from a few short stints, and I have tried to process this in therapy before and through different meditations but got nowhere.

Last tape I used was 5 messages - I did skip a lot of the OBE tapes because honestly, I got nowhere and it felt frustrating and took me out. I've been using RnR regularly, and I've gotten a lot of "downloads." But the depression, self-loathing, anger, and now that new thing, it's all a bit hard to hold space for now that I'm aware of it. May have started crying at work lol

So guess I'm wondering if folks would recommend keep doing the tapes in order, or restart and reprocess? I'm considering restarting because I'm pretty sure this is my "rock bottom" feeling and considering I've built my life around it, seems like maybe it should get a bit of attention