Discard
I'm new here and I come to seek help and share my traumatic and painful experience with an NP, after 11 months of relationship and in the last month the fights, gasligthing, betrayals, attacks of fury and many humiliations have intensified, I decided to move away. I noticed the red flags right from the start, my intuition also screamed and I didn't hear it. I didn't understand deeply about the subject in the 4 month of relationship I started to study about it and I got scared when I discovered how they work in depth, in the first discard I really accepted the situation and disappeared with
15 days he did the hoovering and I fell. I was pushing the relationship by leaps and bounds and as I said in the last month everything intensified after another fight plus silent treatment and total disappearance, already preparing the new victim being with me. It started to leave clues for me to find, more gasligthing and triangulation. At a certain moment, given the exhaustion is cognitive dissonance, I had thoughts that I'm not proud of for thinking, am I this horrible person and do I deserve this treatment? So after the 15 days he came back again and tried a new hoovering with more promises of changes and that would now be different. When I made a request to him for me to return and it was an issue that I asked to be resolved for months I had a negative, so I saw that nothing would change there, so I said my first no of the relationship in 11 months, yes the first not in 11 months. Result? On the same day I post with the ex to humiliate me. I haven't seen him for 45 days and I haven't spoken for 20 I believe that after the final blow he will never appear again. Going from heaven to hell with the same person is too sad, giving your love to someone who doesn't feel love is painful. Being humiliated is discarded one of the experiences I will never forget in my life. I'll never be the same again. If anyone has a word of comfort for me. Why do they humiliate us until we bleed?