u/Somefemboyspubichair

Hey loves...

This will be a heavy topic for today so if you want to leave then just go ahead a scroll.

I feel.. like sometimes I am a boy, and sometimes I am a girl.. thats called being genderfluid!!

I know i like to be a girl at times and be masculine at other times. And there's nothing wrong with that.

But I just.. feel.. incomplete in a way...

I have very feminine trates, curvy body, slightly larger then average for my age breasts, chubby cheeks, high pitched voice... God I feel like im describing y/n from like a whattpad story or smt...

But back to the topic at hand. I love all of those features, trust. But I also want them.. gone...

I want no breasts.. I want to have big biceps.. and a lower voice.. and to be a boy..

And that feeling of incompletion has started to grow bigger and bigger over the years... I want to be a girl, yes. But the feeling that I dont want to be a girl is the problem.

I've begged my mom for a binder countless times but she continues to tell me to, "let your breast grow".

I cut my hair short, yes, because I didnt like the way it would feel on my neck, or the way I would get so hot so fast, or how much maintenance it needed. But I also cut it because I felt in a way that I might fill the incompletion I felt..

It didnt

I started to go to school in gray sweats and baggy clothing because I just felt so.. tired.. of my body.. My friends would continuously use female pronouns, rightfully so, for I haddent told them that I was feeling like this.. I told 4 total people that I was genderfluid and didnt really care what pronouns they used for me, I didnt care when classmates would call me "a man" to insult me. It never fazed me.

But I've felt like this since the 5th grade and now I'm going into 8th... I dont know how to tell my friends, family, or anyone I know. Im posting on reddit first because my friends have my acc on tt and my mom has my acc too.

I feel like I want to transition to a male but I just dont really know... please help!!