I'm a snake therian, and I've tried a couple of ways, but I haven't quite had the time to try any more; is anybody else here a snake therian, and has been able to figure out a way to move like a snake? It just hurts a lot when I try, and I don't really want to injure myself... I >do< want to feel closer to my theriotype, I am just struggling with this in particular.
I am struggling with my identity and I wanted to ask some questions for those who know they are therians, but at least initially struggled with their identity as well.
I am pretty sure I am a therian, because I want to do things that align with the animal that I feel like I am(snake), like crawling on the ground or trying to use just my stomach muscles to slither around on the floor, wanting to increase my sense of smell(despite the gross smells I encounter in my daily life) and wanting to burrow into a den of some sorts. But also, I can recognize that my human form is useful, and I wouldn't wish for all of it to be gone.
I sorta wish I could have that more serpentine form, but keep the more useful aspects of my human form, like my arms and hands and my human-muscle-shaped back. I wish I could be a Naga or an Argonian, like in Skyrim, where I have that scaly body, the slit eyes, the forked tongue. It's kinda part of how I figured it out.
Is that so strange? I mean, I know the community is accepting, but I feel really weird about feeling this way. It feels strange and at least a little nonsensical, to my average thinking sense...
I guess I mean to ask: has anybody else felt this way before? How do you work through that sort of feeling of awkwardness?
I've told my mom before, but I didn't really have the right words so I feel like she didn't really understand it, but she's supportive of me and who I am, I just worry that I won't have the right words this next time, either. She has suggested doing snake-related things and has even bought me multiple snake plushes, so I know she won't object to me telling her more about it, it's just awkward, and I don't know how to resolve that feeling.
Additionally, I have been thinking about this for a long while. I first told my mother about it a couple months ago, but I've been consistently thinking about it for a year, so I don't think it's something that's just going to fade. I tried talking to my therapist about it, but I don't think he understands it. Even if it's "just a phase", it should be a phase I enjoy and remember fondly, I feel. I have dreams of a distant time/place where I was, in fact, snake-like, and I had a mate and I was in the perfect body, but it vanished when I woke up... I want to eventually make like a snake suit to fit my lower body into, but I haven't figured out the logistics/physical design of it yet.
So, my questions thus are:
A), has anybody else felt like this before, where you want to be like an animal but still wish to retain your human capabilities?
B), how do you get past that awkwardness/the feeling that it's not intrinsic or innate to your being?
C), did you tell your parents and how did you tell them, if you did?
And D), how did you figure out what it originated from? I am still very confused how I came to be like this and I would like help figuring it out, but I don't really have anybody else to ask irl...
Any help at all would be greatly appreciated, even if you don't have the personal experience to answer all of the questions.