*Rant* This year was exhausting
This is a rant but I’ve gotta just let it out here. This year 25-26 was absolutely brutal and not just for me. There was a collective exhaustion on campus, especially during the spring semester. The funding cuts, the AI invasion, the constant political and economic threats, and for whatever reason, multiple people experiencing crisis level family and personal illnesses. This is on top of the usual stressors that happen in a phd program. I’m very passionate about what I am researching. I love to write, read, explore, and apply what I’ve learned for building solutions. That’s why I haven’t quit. But the real life shit, seeing other students get their programs shut down, leaving to avoid dealing with the bs of ICE and immigration, takes its toll. I’ve never liked conferences or the over emphasis on publishing quantity, but it’s becoming unbearable because everything is centered around how we can do this or that thing with AI. It’s even stolen some of the joy of writing research because of the obvious AI written articles I see circulating. I lead a grad student org (and serve on a committee for another) and recruitment is struggling, reasonably so. People can’t afford to travel to costly conferences on a phd salary when they have to wait at least a month to get the money back. They don’t have the mental energy to hold an e-board or committee role. If I wasn’t about to enter my final year, I’m not sure if I’d have it in me to go on.
Anybody else? (rant end lol)