u/South-Look5158

Any pros here, I need your help

Background info: I'm a high school science and maths student in my early senior year, I take bio, chem, physics and further maths so they're really hard, I am a male 176cm, 58kg. I struggle with maintaining focus and finding the motivation to study. I value strong problem-solving skills, a good memory, and mental clarity. I also experience severe depressive episodes, which often manifest as apathy and emotional numbness. There's only 3 months left for my final exam which is a standardized assessment. I used to be in the top of my school throughout my life until I was 15 when my mum died. After that incident my grades plummeted like crazy. If you can, help me with a nootropic or a nootropic stack that can put me back where I was. I want to focus on problem-solving and memory, my memory is getting worser. Any help would be nice.

I got into astrology when I was 12, searching answers about my mum's death. It was a huge rabbit hole that I fallen into. Then I realized the problem, my chart had a lot of misfortune, which gave me a way to cope. While I was scrolling through the yoga lists that my chart has, I ignored kemadruma yoga, thinking it didn't matter. I experienced extreme level of isolation when I got into high school, which I blamed on my 12th house moon but it didn't sit right with me. The people I consider as best friends would move out all of a sudden. It was devastating. When the 4th friend that was close to me moved out, I became friends with a friend group. I was the "new guy" so they made me a punching bag of the group. I still bared with it because friends are my only way to cope with my grief of my mother's lost and my emotionally unavailable father's behavior. I got to know that the friend group made a group chat without me. I was exhausted with being friends with anyone at that point. Today I decided to look at my chart again and there it was, kemadruma yoga written in my chart. It all made sense. I accepted that I'll never get friends anymore, maybe it's time to embrace my loneliness. I am the black sheep of my family and I don't fit in the real world. What are your opinions??

p.s ppl find ways to hate me no matter why, why is that.

I’m non bumi from Malaysia and I’m interested in becoming a quant in the future. I wanna know realistically, what path did you take?

What did u take and where did you study?

Did you study locally or overseas?

What skills matter most?

How important are maths, coding, and competitions?

How hard is it getting into quant from Malaysia specifically?

What would you do differently if you started again?

I’m still young and I'm gonna sit for my SPM in several months, trying to figure out the best path early. I’d really appreciate advice from Malaysians who made it into quant or related fields.