Not sure what im feeling
Hello. I (F23) have been on 150mg for 3 weeks now and i started on 25 mg in July. im really not sure “what to feel for” if that makes sense. its definitely doing something to my body. I have headaches and my hands start shaking when its about 24 hours since the last dose. I am extremely depressed and suicidal but I had an abnormal reaction to SSRI’s and almost died frim serotonin syndrome a few years back so i cant take those again. before lamictal i tried two other meds - duloxetine and pregabalin but it did nothing for me.
I am autistic and i have always had trouble describing my feelings, both physically and emotionally. for example right now the only thing i can describe is “very bad and im constantly crying).
I know is a stabilizer but im not sure how to know if its working. I basically swing between extremely sad to extremely sad but with strongeer and more concrete thought of seriously harming myself.
Sorry im bad at explaining but i dont know what to do? i feel like my psychiatrist just asks “do you feel better” and all i can say is “no”