Ideas for external sources of motivation when I WFH
Maybe I'm 6 years late on this, but I've lost all desire to take care of myself and get work done. I just can't bring myself to care without being out in the world and comparing myself to other people. That hasn't felt healthy but also it's the only way that I can get myself to be anything other than a blob.
Before 2020 (also had my 1st child December 2019), I would work in an office 4 days/week and healthy habits tied to that. I'd leave early to go to the gym, interacted with other humans, and felt successful, smart, and on top of my shit. WFH was good for years until I burnt myself out and now I'm just a blob who doesn't care. It's been like 2 years since full burnout and I don't think I'm still burnt out but still trying to find ways to motivate myself. No, I don't really have any friends other than my wife. But whenever I go to events at kids schools, it's embarrassing. And honestly, I crave more of that. But it also hurts to do those things as it just shows me how crappy I've become. Yes, I'd love to make some friends but feel beyond lost and out of time at the moment to actually make that happen.
I know I can do all sorts of things like going to a coffee shop regularly to work, going to the gym every morning, etc. But without systems in place, it's nearly impossible for me to do those things. I can see it having a negative impact on my life but the connection isn't clicking for me to actually make things better without that external pressure. It's like I need to be forced to go do things or at least enough things. Current job is WFH, which is awesome as my location makes finding a hybrid job within a reasonable commute tricky (major sprawling city with awful traffic). WFH is great with kids and dog. I just desperately want to make it work again.
Part of me wants to talk to doc about medication dosage, but I burnt myself out by apparently being on too high a dose of stimulants that I could only focus on work and stopped caring about being a human and consequently broke parts of my life that lead to me having no friends and eventually turning into a gross blob.
Has anyone been here? Does anyone do anything that actually works in a similar situation?