u/Sparrrsh

This year 2026 is especially being toll for me , each and everyday my mental health is getting spoiled , this began in jan 2026 during mains , I had studied for 2 whole years , just before mains I had suffered jaundice , so like a whole month in dec I didn't study well , was confident about mains , gave exam got 76.66787tile , parents were disappointed , but still kept my head up my hsc board were starting , gave exam studied properly, then in month of March started focusing on jee mains again studied hard , my shift was 4s2 , scored around 121 marks percentile just above 92 , could even clear adv cutoff , the exam which I was preparing for 2 years and I could even qualify it , side by side kept my head up started focusing on mht cet and bitsat , ugee , mht cet result has been declared yet , bitsat I scored 205 not good marks at all , gave ugee on 2 may morning shift , was happy bcz I had performed well , sat in the car 12:47 hsc result dropped , I scored 57.33 percentage, that was the final nail in the coffin , our institute ranker had scored 68 percentage, I am Damnn sure i gave my best in hsc examination, 57.33 is not acceptable at all, i dont know what to do as of now , feels just like my hardwork is nothing but a piece of crap now , depression, the isolation for 2 years , idk everything is hitting me now , suicidal thoughts . My last hope was ugee I was scoring around 84.5 to 97 in ugee with reap score always above 70 . That too is gone

Idk even my future plans are finished, placements even higher studies seems a long shot now

I still feel hsc board fucked it up for me .singing off bye and thank you for listening my confession