u/Specialist_Season599

So i don't really know how to write this and this is my first post. Please don't take anything as arrogant or insulting, I really don't mean it. Im just gonna write it how it comes now. So for context im 18 and live in germany and am now in my last year of school. Also I grew up till I was 5 in Poland which leads to me being surrounded by more languages since I can remember. Im just gonna start now telling everything in chronological order just from my life. Since I can remember I was different then the others, fast pattern recognition, better then the average in everything I touch etc. In 3rd grade I have won school math competitions with continued up to the 8 or 9 grade I think. Then I just stopped to participate. I don't even remember why probably the school stopped to participate or it stopped making fun to me. Somewhere between this time my parents made me took an iq test which I didn't even really paid attention and didn't make much out of it cause I didn't care bout things like this as a kid. The result was either 143 or 147 I don't remember but 1 out of this numbers. The more I grew older I started to spot more things in others behavior and started to catch interest in things like this. I also noticed how in school im not as good as I was and started to look into it as well as analyzing my own behavior. The moment I am bored by a them or it doesn't make fun my brain turns off and im going g into daydreaming or something like this. The moment something interests me I am fully locked in and am ahead of every one. Also I noticed that even with my intelligence others may pass me cause they simply know how to study which I never learned cause i understood everything that fast. I look up these "symptoms" and read about them. I read about the term "twice exceptional" for the first time and spoke about it to my dad. (For context, it's definitely my dad's site of the family where I got the intelligence from. Grandpa professor, grandma also very intelligent with masters in physics etc. Also I would say rn my dad is the only person with whoch i can really talk about my interest like very abstract theories etc and that is like somehow on my level without sounding arrogant) then I got to know that even in my childhood there were signs. As a small child so like 2-3y old I started to count in my free time on a meter and just reading numbers. When playing memory I had a favorite pair and before playing i already told everyone that we're playing without it cause I'd cry if somebody else gets it. When on a child birthday I sat in the corner and analyzed. Then I went in for 1 boy and made him my friend at the party. So there were definitely some sings of something when I was young. The older I grew the more I started to recognize patterns in my self and catch myself doing some thing unconsciously. First friends and my social life in general. I never really had a problem with it but I don't think it's because I have a good intuition naturally what to say, even tho I would say I have a relatively high eq too but that not the point now. I think im just good at it cause i process really fast small details, people's behavior etc and cannot just calculate what to say in real-time, for a example a perfect joke or something serious etc, you get it. But then lately also something like that someone shows me something and I react to it impressed or something but then moments later I realize that I just completely lied unconsciously even in the smallest situations like when we're at a skatepark and we see strangers do some tricks. My friend asks me what I think about them or he says that he likes them and I just agree or say that it looks cool even tho I couldn't care less. Idk for now thats about it. I dont really want to write a longer text cause I have the impression that this is pretty long already. If you have anything to say or questions pls write em in the comments. Also if you want I can write it maybe more detailed and better structured with preparation. Hope somebody reads this haha, have a nice day