EMDR does wonders
Hey everyone,
I joined this sub over a year ago as I was struggling to leave my girlfriend who has BPD. We have been together for 5 years and she was extremely abusive during that time in every way. I left once before for about 6 months before I fell back into the relationship. We have now been together for almost another year and it’s been more of the same shit despite her “working on her BPD”. She claims to have changed, but she’s just hiding her symptoms to keep me close. I started EMDR with a therapist in January because I was desperate to be free. The trauma bond was so strong I wasn’t able to leave without feeling like I was about to snap in two.
Now, I’m planning on leaving her for good on Friday. I don’t have the anxiety I used to have. Instead I’m filled with excitement and hope for my future and my freedom. I feel nothing but disgust towards her and can’t believe I ever loved her. I have no respect for her anymore now that I’ve been able to process all the trauma she’s given me. I feel so light and happy now. It’s like the fog has been lifted for me and I can see the situation clearly and have the strength and respect for myself to leave. I truly believe EMDR has saved my life. If you are struggling and have the means to go to someone who specializes in EMDR, please do!