I need help
I am 24f. When I was little (under 10), I had a sleepover at a family friend’s house. I was very young and didn’t know when play turned to the man who was supposed to be watching us, molesting me. I never talked about it, I felt like it was my fault and pushed it to the back of my mind. Unfortunately growing up I developed a kink to be dominated, taken against my will. I know it is not good, I feel like I’m broken. I always fantasize about older men, married men getting their way with me. I honestly don’t know how to stop, how to reset my brain. How to not fantasize about the same thing over and over. I don’t sleep around, but I get so turned on thinking these awful things. I don’t know why I’m sharing this, maybe I’m hoping to find someone who understands or can relate. I’m open to suggestions, but please understand most of it is not in my control.