u/SpiritedCaramel5776

i'm 16f, throwaway account

ok i know how the title sounds but lately i have really been struggling. every night i think about how i wish i wasw dead and how much easier things would be. Ive thoughgt about when i would do it, where, how, how i would write the letters, and so on. The problem is i dont feel depressed and i am struggling a lot with school currently but nothing serious and i dont really know why im having these thoughts. these thoughts are really scaring me and now i am scared to go hunting with my father (something we do togetehr) since ive had dreams ive turned the gun on myself. I dont know what to do.