First time with BOTEC1
I tried BOTEC1 meditation yesterday, and I honestly don't even know what to say. Firstly I'm not new with meditation and not new even with Dispenzas meditations. I started reading Becoming supernatural, and simply decided to do the meditations always at the end of the chapter. Usually I have sticekd with few same meditations.
But this was crazy, and something I have never experienced before. When going through the centers, my body knew already the next one, before I was able to put my awareness on the next center, I was always already aware of the "next step" as I felt something moving through the energy centers.
I think it was at the third center when I got extremely scared and had to even pause the meditation and I looked around my living room if everything was fine. I think I paused it for like 10 seconds and kept going anyway.
As I reached to the fifth center it felt like I almost had a bubble in my throat. Eventually the bubble went away, but I felt tears rolling down. A lot of tears.
And at sixth center I got really scared. Way much more scared than before. Now as I think, I have no idea if I have ever been that scared before. And oh boy how I have been scared in this life. So it was really intense.
And finally at the 8th center. I don't even know how to describe it, because it sounds so crazy. But everything turned white. Like the most purest white there is. At the same time the white light was a star shining in sky (during daytime, but still it was able to shine) and it was also like the whitest daisy in the world at the same time. But somehow it was me. I was the light, the star and the white flower that I think was a daisy.
I don't know how long it lasted. When I "came back", nothing felt normal. It's hard to explain, but somehow for a moment none of my life didn't feel real. When I went to the mirror it felt like I was looking at someone I used to know. Like a childhood classmate or something like that.
So I think my question is, mainly what the hell. Is there people who can share similar experiences? Or something. I don't have many spiritual people in my life, and this was so intense that it would be really nice to hear other views on my experience.