I’m tiredddd
Mostly I am venting and because I am frustrated and I am tired to be singleeeee. I am just waiting for a beautiful woman to be obsessed with and be obsessed with her/ them, so I could live under their skin and vice versa.
For context, I grow up in one of the whitest towns of southern Europe and now I have moved away and I live in the epicenter of one of the whitest European capitals. I have always thought that it must be something wrong with me because I am 27 years old and no one or very very very few queer people ( I can count them on my phalanges) has had a romantic interest in me. I even talked with tarot readers and a hoodoo priestess to figure out whats wrong with me and they told me that the needs to happen in me (i am in therapy as well and really trying my best and i feel that most people dating nowadays are not even trying to be a decent person but ok, let’s move on). Also I read someone’s else post before about dating apps and couldn’t agree more with their opinion!
I tried queer clubs, lesbian events, and even downloaded dating apps and I find them really depressing. On one side I know I have high standards, yes, but at the same time the people on the apps are not at all who I would date or even have sex with.
A friend told me that people are intimidated by me because I am too beautiful, people are general intimated by black women and because I have a strong personality. Honestly, I do believe the latter and the fact that black lesbian/ queer women we do have a smaller pool for dating but about my confidence, right now, is below hell level… so here comes a question: what do you do when you feel hopeless?
Edit: thank you all for the sweet comments!! I appreciate 🤍🌺