u/Square_Function_445

Hi I was raised in church and around God and about 4 years ago I came out as a lesbian and found a girlfriend and lost God because of the hate I was surrounded by after that.
I never really knew God.
I was never, and still am not sure if he existed, but ever since I have had this guilt for shoving him out of my life. I want to find him, I’m just scared. I dont know how to approach it.
Ive never stopped praying because Ive always wanted him to be listening, I have just had to many questions and sometimes I feel like it doesn’t make since to be real. I want it to be.