u/Squirt9034

After dating and semi cohabitating for a year or so a pulmonologist tells her she has 5 years to live and there wasnt anything that could be done for her condition. She didnt want to drag me through her suffering so she explained that she was breaking up with me. Well, i said bullshyt! What kinda man lets a woman he loves go through that alone. I told her, youll need help and thatll be me. First thing we will fore your pulmonologist and get someone a bit more proactive. Never thought i would marry again after my 2nd ended. But afterr we were together 4 years and living together for 3 of them i asked her to marry me. From the beginning ive been fighting for her. The pulmonologists, cardiologists, asthma specialists, transplant teams. On and on. All the medication for pain, to help breathe, the dialate airways and blood vessels, the antidepressants but it kept getting worse. Then a doctor finally told the truth about how she could recover a significant portion of her pulmonary function by exercising her diagram. So sje has been getting more active. She weened herself off of a whole lot of medication but stopped rye antidepressanta cold turkey for 2 months. I dont think her body chemiztry had time to stabilize. She would cry profusely and say nothing is wrong im just sad and need to cry, ive always been like this. You need to understand this woman is my best friend. She is the live of my life! She is my soulmate and human credential. I love... i adore her so much! So now she is back on xanax but she is like a different person. She twists people words to make it out like they said something other than what they said. When i talk about potential ill effects of anti depressant taken in excessive doses she act like i insulted her character. But im just saying that is a bad drug. Well, three days ago she woke up early and woke me by screaming in my face later i learned she was screaming, "You lost me!" Over and over but like a maniac. Well, i was comong off a 26 hour work shift and jad only 3 hours of aleep when all this yelling started. She left the bedroom amd stopped yelling. I had to pee then i went back to bed. When i woke she was gone. I texted her and she informed me that she was leaving me. She wants a divorce. I am crushed. I have been in shock for 2 days prior to today and today it began to hit, how alone i am. And when i speak to her its like she is a completely different person. She lies now. She never lied to me before. I dont know what to do. My lover, my heart, my soul, my friend, my partner... its as if she died and someone else is walking around in her body. Please yall. This Texas hill country homeboy needs hugs and wisdom and comfort. I completely broke down earlier today. Ive never cried like rhat before. I have never hurt like this before. Ive never loved anyone this much. I feel like im fyckin dying. Somebody straighten me out please.