how can i learn to trust again?
Please only give advice that answers the question without just telling me to leave.
My boyfriend struggled with a corn (not sure if i can use the word) addiction for about five years and stopped shortly before we started dating. He told me this morning that he had relapsed (after approx 2.5 years clean).
We both consider watching corn as cheating, so it was a bigger problem than just his relapse. I decided I would stay and told him that if it happened again he wouldn't get another chance. He seemed genuinely very sorry and was as honest as he could've been. He told me he's done what he can to make sure it won't happen again, and he can't even explain why he did it. It was late at night, but he made no effort to call me or do anything to prevent it (from how he made it sound).
I love him more than anything and he's the only person I feel like I've ever completely trusted and I fell like i believe him when he says he won't do it again. But I never distrusted him before, so now i'm not even sure how to act. We've always shared phones and locations, but this is something that he can access at any time from anywhere, so the only way to know he isn't is to trust him.
I keep saying i trust him, but in the back of my mind i can't stop thinking about it. How can I move on and start trusting him again?