u/Steamandneedles

I'm not sure how, and I'm trying to but i need to. I'm capable of immense joy but at the same time sadness.

Just an immense overwhelming grief which itself makes me feel guilty. That I'm not focusing as much on those in my life as i should be. It eats me alive at times. i dont want anyone to touch most of the time, my skin feels like its poisonous or covered in razors, i dont feel comfortable in it.

my lover knows how much i get stuck on it she still loves me anyways but we both worry about it. i hope you've been healing in the meantime

I'm thinking about you again tonight. after all this time i still think about you and miss you. There's no other excuse left anymore, it's just missing you not escaping anything else. My heart still wrends some nights. But i dont know what id even do with it if we did talk, probably just dissociate.