Not sure where to go
Myself (36M) and my wife (36F) have been together for 14 years and it has always been pretty toxic and I have done a lot of wrong. As of a month ago, she decided we are not in a relationship anymore and then over the next few weeks it has been back and forth on what she wants. She has been on and off seeing another man that we both knew from a previous job for 11 years without me knowing it past the initial time she told me she cheated. But now, I have since been forgiving and even mentioned I am open to her just having us both as partners. I love my wife but I also understand why she sought out another situation. But now, the most recent status is just friends and I am waiting for her to taste a bit of freedom. The only downside is that she is going and doing her thing while if I do anything with anyone else then she would be done with me. What would you guys do in my situation?