Breaking point
I am a ftm to a 9 month old boy. Since day 1 I have been struggling. I don’t know if he’s a high needs baby or if I’m just not cut out for this but I’m so tired of it all. I keep hearing it will get better “after 3 months, after 6 months, etc…” but it hasn’t. Today he cried almost all morning from 9:30 until 1 pm and at some point I just put him in his crib for 15 minutes because I was afraid I might shake him. The crying is just so hard for me. People keep telling me to power through the crying and move on with my day. Someone said he’s running the household because I walk on eggshells to avoid him crying. I don’t want him to become entitled like that but there’s only so much crying I can take. I get nothing done around the house, some days I don’t eat or drink much water because I know it will make him cry if I stop to prepare something. Tv helps. Miss Rachel buys me some time to make his bottles and prepare his solids. After caring for him and meeting his needs, there was so much crying the whole way through that the best way for me to care for myself is to just avoid any crying. I have headphones and ear protection. Makes no difference. I’m just venting, but if anyone else struggled like this I would love to hear your story.