u/Still_Reality_4798

I have lost 190 pounds. I haven't weighed this amount since high school. I feel good, but my legs still feel like I'm carrying heavy bricks inside my skin. My legs still look like this. It's beyond frustrating. I eat decently anti-inflammatory (I'm not perfect- I'll have the occasional protein bar, etc). I have worked soooo hard to lose the weight... and yet, it feels like it's not enough. It may never feel like enough. I truly don't think my legs will ever improve beyond this and it's so flipping frustrating.

I don't want surgery. I am 37, and had a pulmonary embolism scare last year after having a hysterectomy. I would rather live with large painful legs then risking the chance of that happening to me again and possibly losing my life.

So these are my legs now & forever, and sometimes that feels so fudged up. On a rough symptom day, they turn purple at the bottom right up until my ankle cuff. It's scary as heck. I finally got new compression knee-high stockings that fit me... $417 later. I bought a few new compression leggings to wear over them... $300 later.

Dang this disease is expensive. It all feels so unfair sometimes. Then, I remember that even though I'm dealt such a 💩 hand, it could be worse. Things could always be worse.

I'm ok. I'm managing as best as I can. That's all I can do.

It's important to live life as full and as best as I can.

We live in a 2 bedroom small home. With house prices the way they are...

How do I store everything?! I'm feeling overwhelmed that it's taking over my kitchen 😂 and I know as the years go by, it's going to grow into more stuff!

Here's a Pic of our setup now:

Any other small home peeps here?

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