TTC after termination due to depression
I’m not sure if my post is appropriate here, and if not I can definitely delete it. I terminated a planned pregnancy at 7 weeks back in December due to terrible perinatal depression and anxiety. It really hit me out of the blue with no prior history of this and my mind was literally all over the place, I didn’t know what to do with myself. After much back and forth, I couldnt take it anymore and terminated. Of course after everything was done, it hit me like a train and my mental health took a steep decline. I’ve slowly started to come out of that very dark place I was in, but I have this intense desire to have another child. We are thinking of ttc again, maybe starting next month. The only reason I am somewhat rushing it is because of my age (38), otherwise I would have waited a bit longer. However, I feel so much guilt for the one that never had a chance, it breaks my heart to ttc again after this but we have wanted a 3rd child for years and it equally breaks my heart to potentially give up on this dream for good. Any advice on how to navigate this feeling of guilt of trying for another? Has anyone experienced anything similar to this and how did you manage/cope?