A year sober in 10 days.
I was full blown alcoholic for 10+ yrs 4 am wake up for work drrink go to work drink etc repeat.On July 13th last year I woke up from a drinkin nap about 8 pm ate had a few more drinks back to sleep until about midnight I woke up not feeling great. I went to the bathroom and noticed I was very jaundiced I tried walking off the feeling and It wasn't going good. I've had 2 day hang overs too many to count, lots of throwing up etc. This was different after about 2 hrs of sitting down walking ice on me etc I honestly thought fuck it finally got me. I called my mom said I need to go to the hospital I'm not good. She rushed over this was about 3 am.
We got in the car and talked I started crying which I'm one of those bury it deep and never show it people. We got to the E.R they took me back right away and here's where it all gets worse. They talked too me etc said they need to do an MRI? I think,
I remember talking to the nurse on my way there. Tried to hit on her even almost dead lol.
That's the last thing I remember Idk when or why but I blacked out and stuff they took me back to icu at some point I remember bits and pieces like a dream of fighting and kicking the like 10 people holding me down, including security my sister and parents. It's basically all black out from the MRI trip. My mom showed me a picture when I was awake on my tablet which I don't remember but she said she saw my eyes just go blank and dead she told the nurse he's about to lose it. More struggling 2 doses of whatever they give you to calm down.
I don't remember 2 weeks, they had that electrical cap on me for seizures and I was a day away from being incubated, but I woke up somewhat alert and coherent everything from there on in the hospital which was another 1.5 weeks that I remember.
Worst part of the "feeling better" was having to call in a nurse to use the bathroom multiple times. what an embarrassing hellscape that was.
Doctor ended up talking to my mom towards the end outside of the room told her it's one of the not good case of cirrhosis he's seen.
Since then not even a sip even if knowing I can handle 1 night of it why risk it? I also did alot of dumb shit while drunk tried different drugs I hadn't tried yet.
In the year now I've been to more doctors and appointments than I have in like 20- yrs ER only. Worst part of it is I've put on between 20-25 lbs, and take almost 20 pills a day, also broke my foot in April? Still dealing with that.
From the beginning they talked about 20%? Functionality but I mightve heard wrong. Either way they brought up liver transplant and I said no not unless I have to. Went to the liver specialist a few months ago and she said we'll if it does get worse from here on it'll put you on the list.
Overall I think the hardest part is adjusting, physically emotionally etc, and I almost lost my shit yesterday took my mom for breakfast (staying at my parents atm until I figure shit out) she drove there I drove back and before I left the parking lot she said have you been drinking? i said fuck no. Oh it I thought I smelled it. I almost parked got out and said fuck you I'll walk back the 6 miles.
So Overall yeah that's my journey of a year.
*Edit* I should add my 1st temptation was grocery shopping, my sister had to get beer or something. So we headed towards the liquor department and I had to give her the cart and say I'm walking that way. I could smell it clearly.
2nd time was more more recent my brothers daughters 2nd bday and a bunch of people most drinking I had to walk to the side of the house and get away for a few minutes.