Losing my virginity
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I’m 20 years old, and when people ask how I lost my virginity, I never know what to say. It wasn’t with one person it was with four women, all in the same night. I used to think people would be impressed if I told them, but honestly, I regret every second of it.
They were all different, each one catching my eye in their own way. One was tall, with long dark hair that fell over her shoulders and dark eyes that looked right through you; she had this confident, sharp look like she knew exactly what she wanted. Next to her was a shorter girl with curly blonde hair and fair skin, soft features and a sweet smile that made her seem gentle, though she was just as forward as the rest. Then there was one with wild, wavy red hair and freckles across her nose she was lively, always laughing, and had this bright, bold energy that pulled you in. The last one had straight brown hair, tanned skin, and a quiet, calm way about her, like she was watching everything before she joined in.
That night, they were all dressed up, wearing things that showed off their shapes, smelling like sweet perfume and alcohol. They were friendly at first, laughing and talking, but slowly they started getting closer, touching my arm, leaning in, making me feel like I was the center of everything. I was young and didn’t know any better I thought it was exciting, like some kind of dream come true. They took control, guiding me along, passing me between them, each one taking their turn. It all happened so fast, and before I knew it, it was over.
But once it was done, the excitement vanished instantly. I looked at them and realized I didn’t even know them that well. It felt empty, messy, and wrong. I always thought my first time would be special, something shared with someone I cared about, something I could look back on and remember well. Instead, I remember their faces, their touches, and how it all blurred together and I hate that memory. I gave away something that was mine, something I can never get back, and I did it with four strangers just because I got caught up in the moment. Everyone might think it sounds like a great time, but to me, it’s the biggest mistake I ever made. I wish I’d never done it, and I wish I could take it all back.