u/Strong_002

For Context: After a few months of unemployment I accepted a job at the beginning of the month. The pay sucked but my director was willing to work with me on getting scheduled a lot. A week into the position- the director told me they were leaving and encouraged me to apply. I didn’t but I thought that was wild. Two weeks in and upper management calls me in to provide assistance to a different department that I have background in. So, I guess I’m doing two jobs now?

Today they cut my hours for June. I was working full time and now I’m barely scheduled 3 days a couple weeks next month. When I talked to my director about she just said “sorry” and when I talked to upper management about it they said they’d “look into it” and “your director promised you something that isn’t there” - so I don’t have much hope.

I see and understand their leadership and organization is the issue here but that doesn’t help me pay my bills. I already applied to a few more jobs tonight.

I’m trying to be positive and just keep pushing along but wow it’s hard tonight.

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Please pray that maybe HR can fix the scheduling for next month. Please pray that I can learn this new department role while I’m there and do some good. Please pray that I can have some direction and guidance on what I need to do next. Please prayer for God’s provision either on the immediate need of money to pay bills or a new job quickly. Please prayers for my attitude. I don’t want to walk around like a storm cloud because of this. Life happens sometimes I know it, but I want to react well.

I’ve noticed that a lot of my anxiety centers around work. I just started a new job yesterday and it was awkward and uncomfortable and I’m still not sure what I’m doing. On surface level, those are all normal first day reactions. For a while this evening my anxiety was amped up so high and my chest got tight and I started getting doom and gloom thoughts about how awful this job is going to be and that I’m “stuck” there now because obviously I need a job to survive so just gotta keep going.

The thing is - this feeling has cost me 2 jobs before. In the past, I’ve been a runner when this feeling of fear and “danger” gets too high. I do anything I can to escape this feeling of anxiety and “stay safe” BUT those actions don’t keep me safe. They hurt me. The feeling is wrong.

I can’t keep running from things all my life. A new job won’t be uncomfortable forever. I’m just spiraling and that’s not a time to make life decisions.

At least, on job 3 (after 40 minutes of spiraling) I can start to see the difference and make better decisions. Progress? Ugh. 🙃

I have been unemployed since January and it’s been an uphill battle, but I got a job! Hopeful to start next week too as soon as background checks, paperwork is all cleared up. Very thankful tonight.

Hi All,

I just wanted to update on my last post from 10 days ago where I expressed my feelings of defeat over rejection after rejection from applications, post-interviews, or just straight crickets after applying to any place at all! It’s been a long 4 months since this whole journey began. I wanted to thank all the support I got from people here. It meant so much to not feel so alone in this season

In the last 10 days, I got a job offer at a tiny Nursing Home near me. The pay isn’t amazing and the hours are odd - but I’m incredibly thankful. Plus, honestly, my bank account will thank me for any over time hours I may be able to get.

I’m not posting this for any congratulations, or to brag, but to give hope for people still looking. I know it’s incredibly frustrating, but just keep going and something will eventually come of it.

For me, what helped was applying to jobs that outside the hours/schedule I would normally take, but beggars and choosers and all that. Also, secondly, I started writing more detailed cover letters and found as a whole I started getting more attention over all after that.

Only way through it is through it, unfortunately. Hang in there everyone!