Have people ever assumed you're a terf? I feel so hurt by this
I have only recently accepted that I'm detrans. I decided to make a new account specifically for posting in these support groups because apparently it makes me a borderline terf. I looked in my profile to see why someone would think that, because I'm the kind of person to openly defend trans ppl (...considering i still am one...).
The only thing that could lead someone to think such a thing is the fact I posted in detrans subs...even though all my comments in detrans subs were supportive comments on vent posts???
I don't even know what to say or think, this is kind of just my biggest nightmare. People thinking I'm a bad person for something beyond my control. I'm trying to not absolutely spiral over this, I have moral ocd so this feels torturous 😭
Being detrans makes me feel horrible guilt, so I think I deserve the ostracisation. The one thing that absolutely fucking terrifies me about being detrans is that I'm doing something deeply wrong and hurtful to trans people, and if people are reacting to me that way, then it only makes sense that I AM doing something hurtful. It just happens that that hurtful thing is being myself. Just fucking kill me.