Being an adult but realised how much of a child I am.
I’m 23y.o. I have worked in 6 different jobs since the age of 18. I got fired in one of my job; none of the job I worked actually last more than a year. I know I have a unique personality that I can speak to anyone I want but go dead air pretty quick because I can carry on a conversation, colleagues given comments to me said I am too robotic. In real life, after I left school and uni, I feel like a lost all the commons things with all my friends. Even my ex said I can’t communicate. I can speak to someone but keep getting comments by others behind my back that I’m too robotic. I tried to prove to myself that I can stay in a job. I can survive a job without being fired. I will not resign like any of my previous jobs. Is it a disability if I lack empathy and skills to carry on a continuous conversation with people for long time? I have had many people who disassociate themselves from me and unfollowed me on social media and stopped replying to my messages because of the way I speak and interact. I do have friends but majority of people I work with are people who I can’t get along with. Team work and communication are the most important thing in my job. My dad said I will get fired If I can’t change myself. I’m thinking like If I could change right away I would have done it already. If it’s something or social skills that I can’t comprehend, I cannot even make changes.