Why do I randomly miss someone I was the one who ended things with?
Assalamualaikum guys hope you are having good day okay guys I’ve been having some really weird feelings lately and I honestly don’t know who to talk to about them and I don’t really want to tell my friends because they see me as the person who always has it together I’m usually the one giving everyone else advice so I don’t really like showing people my lowest points only my mom knows, she’s my best friend and she gave me very good advice!! So um I was actually the one who ended everything We just weren’t compatible and there were things about how he treated me that I wasn’t okay with especially when it came to respecting my boundaries I don’t want to get into too much detail cause gotta stay quiet on creek 👀🫣 but there were definitely things that made me realize this wasn’t something I wanted
after it ended I prayed about it and genuinely asked Allah to help me get this person out of my mind I deleted our chats got rid of everything and just got busy with my own life Gym, school, work, family, everything. I wasn’t sitting around thinking about him (cause man I have a life and life is short!!) Then randomly… I miss him…… It ended maybe two or three months ago so it’s not like this happened yesterday. I’ll be completely fine and then suddenly this person pops into my head and I’m like why am I even thinking about you??
And the weirdest part is whenever I miss this person, I NEVER reach out Like nope Why would I talk to that person?? I know why I ended things and I know the reasons I walked away. Missing someone doesn’t suddenly make all of that disappear and icl I’ve also talked to other people since then and I’ve met other people, but I just don’t feel the same spark that I felt with this person. something about him felt special to me and I don’t really know how to explain it. It’s not like I haven’t tried talking to other people either, it just doesn’t feel the same. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just because it’s not the right time Like maybe I’m not supposed to be with anyone right now and that’s why nothing feels right. I don’t know guys I also prayed istikhara about everything and tried to leave it to Allah I’m not saying that means this person is supposed to come back or anything because I genuinely don’t know I just find it weird that even after praying, deleting everything, getting busy and moving on with my life, this person will randomly cross my mind again.
And I don’t even want to reach out. I’m not going to. I just miss him sometimes and it’s honestly so weird because I’m the one who left has anyone else experienced this? Like you KNOW you made the right decision you don’t want to go back you never reach out but you still randomly miss the person anyway??