I still live at home at 26 years old. it's pretty depressing considering everyone else my age on my street has moved out by now but I have to remind myself that they're not disabled.
At any age
I turned 26 on this day, Monday, July 27th and my life has been nothing but colossal fuck ups. I’ve had no friends for the past 8 years. Even the ones I somewhat had in high school were barely considered friends and more like acquaintances. We rarely ever talked so I was really on my own for 4 years. Then, after graduating high school I ended being alone for another 8 years. The social isolation had done a lot of damage to my brain to the point where I’m considering going to a neurologist. It’s very hard to function in life right now even without the NVLD. My brain is just causing too many distractions that I can’t handle. I dropped out of college not once but twice. The classes were just too difficult especially the few that relied on too many written assignments/ group projects. I actively failed multiple group projects that was too hard to recover from.I don’t know how anyone with this disability actually gets past college. It’s just too much math, social communication, executive functioning, and written assessments. I highly doubt I would have survived in a corporate/ stem job anyways. It’s just not possible for me. Work has also been another issue. My job history hasn’t been any better. I’ve spent most of my life unemployed or underemployed. It’s been mostly shitty retail jobs that I get tired of being in because they’re so shit. I’ve just been so lost on what I want to do in life. It’s so hard to find the right job and don’t know if I ever will. I’m currently in a part time job that I hate and has insanely high turnover. It’s very physical too, it’s not something I want to be stuck in forever. My living situation has mostly been with martens. I did live in my brother’s school apartment for a year but that’s the only independence I’ve ever had. I may never get it back. It’s very hard to not think about suicide when you have zero future and are starting down the possibility of homelessness.
Am i done for?
I'm 25
I just started a new job like a month ago at this mini fulfillment center for a food delivery company (not gonna say the name). And I got to say, I don’t really care for it. It’s very fast paced. it involves lots of quick movements with a shopping cart while looking for items in several different aisles. You have to go to each individual aisle and look for a certain rack with a certain shelf. Everything is labeled like “A15 R2 S3”. It’s not easy for me. It’s not a complex job but the scoring system they have in place is ridiculous. My thoughts on it are mixed. It’s a part time job that has high turnover so it’s not a very good place to work at to begin with. I’m not very fast at it and the job is kinda overwhelming. I don’t know if it’s an NVLD issue or a processing speed issue but I’m not finding items fast enough. It’s hard to remember where all the labels are located. They also have this weird scoring system in place that’s kinda hard to understand. I’m suppose to be getting a 70 or better everyday and I’m only reaching like a 65-72 on average. Most of my coworkers have scores in the 80’s except for a few who are in the 60’s on average. It’s super depressing when you’re having problems in a shitty high turnover part time job.. I’m scared that I will be terminated soon if I don’t pick up the pace. I don’t really know how to improve except just move faster.