How do we handle un-surrendered grief, agony, and depression?
A while ago I had two consequent tragic losses that brought too much pain to this one. A beloved relative in the family that was like a grandmother to me passed away, and shortly before that a cat I had raised for three years died. The two events happened in an abrupt way that created a shock in me but I was unconscious of it. I suppressed my tears, I never allowed myself to cry. I used very little surrender and too much escapism. Those were busy times that I didn’t have time for myself. It’s been about a month since those events happened and it’s been eating out of me; the feeling is one of hell. Another thing that has ensued from this overall situation is a paranoia about how everyone in my life is gonna die at any time. This includes a mixture of anxiety and depression and hopelessness.
This post can also be a way of asking for prayers for the healing of all the above ❤️🩹
I’m ready to give it good cry tonight!!