u/Successful-Salary378

This is my first time here I’ve been ex Muslim for more than a year firstly I was a very strong atheist but slowly I became agnostic but now idk why I’m fearing what if I’m wrong and what if I’m deluded , how can I really know things even tho I’ve good arguments against the religion I’m closeted and never told anyone so what if I’m just validating myself and the existing conclusions , and also there isn’t much textual criticism here it’s more social criticism ,idk why this is happening, have any of you experienced this and what to do ?