My husband is abusing me toxic help!
I’ve known him for a large part of my life ~15 years. We just got married and have been married for 4 months but within the past 4 months we already got into two physical altercations with each other. The first time he wanted my laptop to use and I didn’t give it to him so he aggressively snatched it out of my hand and I tried taking it back away from him but he wouldn’t let me and so I scratched him and ripped his shirt and he was pushing and shoving me to take the laptop away from me which resulted in bruises on my body. Most recently, we were driving home and he wanted me to go to a lounge with him and his friends. It was late and I was tired we had just gone to see a movie I told him to drop me home and then he can go. He got furious why I wasn’t going that I should do something for him, he was calling me names calling me a fat bitch and so I took out my phone and said I would record him and he snatched my phone out of my hand while driving and threw it under his seat. I was so angry I spilled soda on his head which was in the car and threw his phone at him. Then, on Friday and Saturday he proceeds to go out with his friends until late. I looked up on ChatGPT if I should divorce him. He went thru my phone while I was in the shower and sees this and gets livid. I told him if he does it even one more time I’m filing for divorce. To mock me he takes my headphones and throws it across the room and doesn’t even pick it up. On sunday again he’s out with his friends. When he comes home I was on my laptop and I saw he was signed into his Gmail so I went thru his search history and I saw several things where he was looking up how to find single moms who wanna get laid Reddit, he’s fall funny and good personality okay looking would he get a one night stand, how to find one night stands in nyc Las Vegas or Miami if you have a table. I also saw this in his search history on ChatGPT once before. Does he have a problem?? I was livid and confronted him about this and was furious so I slapped him and things escalated from there. He said that he would never cheat on me, it’s like a milf thing like porn. It’s things he searched cuz he was at a low point. He blames me. At the end of the night he ended up slapping my arm and bruising my other arm. He went into a psychotic rage and threw my things across the room. Took a knife and put it in my hand pointing it to his stomach telling me to kill him. We haven’t spoke since. He’s always coming home late now. Monday morning he showed me the scars. Where do I go from here? It was very difficult to marry this man bc our parents weren’t accepting due to religious differences and now we finally have it and we completely destroyed the marriage collectively. What’s gonna fix it? Where do we go from here? I am open to any and all solutions