u/Sudden_Scene9197

hi everyone! 24F here with self-diagnosed lipedema. i know i should get a professional diagnosis but i can’t afford that at the moment😢.

I’ve been researching for ages tho and i’m pretty confident that i have it. stage 1 probably.

until i can get professional treatment, i want to give conservative therapy a real shot.

i found this massage vibration device in my mom’s closet, i tried it with my legs raised and it’s really relaxing.

Question is, is there a specific pattern i’m supposed to follow when massaging?

and is this enough on it’s own for lymphatic drainage? i really don’t know much about it all..

helppp i’m so overwhelmed by all this :( i want to feel more confident in my body!

I’m the one who initiated the break up because our futures REALLY don’t align and I was way too emotionally dependent on him.

Our relationship wasn’t healthy. He wasn’t a patient man he had jealousy issues and was really mentally dysfunctional. My therapist thinks his traits pointed towards narcissism mostly.

But girls, I love him so bad! I feel so stupid saying this but mshan allah I can’t sleep without crying for hours or holding his pictures.

Because besides all the ugly stuff I mentioned, our love and attachment was so intense. Our chemistry was like none other, I felt seen with him!

I felt held, I felt loved, I felt safe.

But from the moment I said I want to break up I saw the light and love fade away from his eyes, it just really looked like I was dead to him and he turned so cold in just 1 minute.

So a few weeks ago, I broke no contact because I couldn’t stop crying and really felt like I would rather die than not text him. But all I got was more coldness.

Please I’m desperate, how do I get over him? How do I find myself again? How do I make anything in my life matter again if he’s not there to see it? How do I stand by my decision!

All I do is stay busy to avoid the pain.

I can’t keep living like this..

Newbie- pls guide me..

Broke no contact and regret it..