I relate so much to Severus
I feel broken, hollow, lonely and confused in life.
I keep falling into the same destructive behaviours, paradigms, prejudices and fears and I never seem to be able to overcome them.
Deep down, there's a longing for someone like Lily to walk into my life. For her to "Fix me" with kindness and love and friendship. But it was never meant to be: I don't seem to realise that my fear of vulnerability will forever impede me from making true friends, just like Severus. I'll only get the superficial companionships.
Much like Severus, if someone like Lily were to miraculously walk into my life, my personal insufficiencies would push them away. My very nature seems to be to fall prey to my demons again and again and again, with no saviour.
That's why I love his character and his relationship with Lily so much. We both feel broken inside and long for someone outside to fill that void. But in the end, we are destined for misery as long as we continue to fall victim to our very nature.
I'm sorry for the cynical post. I just read a few fanfics pertaining to Snape and felt like venting my feelings. Thanks for reading