How to get over the guy I lost my virginity to?
My ex and I were together for two months and in that time he took my virginity. He knew I was a virgin and that I had been sexually abused for 8 years and I trusted him with my body only to find out he was still in love with his opiate addict, cheating, long distance ex from 2ish years ago. We broke it off a few days ago and I genuinely don't know what to do or how to continue with my life. I regret it deeply and I wish I could take it back but I can't. I know I will never get to have that experience with another person, someone who only wants me, someone who isn't waiting on another person, and I hate it. I picked the wrong person and now that we're over I'm stuck at a crossroads and I need advice. Do I stay celibate until marriage, never risking the pain of letting someone else in like that again until we're both absolutely certain we want that but simultaneously giving him that importance of being the only man I consensually slept with, or do I start sleeping with other people and risk getting hurt like that again but removing that importance from him? (Not talking sleeping around and being a hoe just having sex with my next partners.) I genuinely don't know what to do and I'm fucking stuck.