u/SuicidaRetard_24_7

I love computers and I always wanted to know everything about them but i know that's realistically not possible. And this hinders my ability to learn.

I want to learn every intricate detail of every tool, how computers work under the hood, how do you make hardware communicate with each other.

But I have this issue where when I engage with people of a particular field they seem way more smarter and competent than (even interns) and then I fall back into this destructive loop of not trying to get better but instead being scared of being perceived as a newbie or dumb.

And it's not like I know a lot. I only know C# and python. But I want to get into embedded, cyber security, web development, mobile development. But I always keep thinking I am dumb.

But also the idea of learning a new thing is overwhelming and scary and I always feel like I am not smart enough.

Skillet is kinda hated (I am not talking about John's political compass, I hate him for that too ngl) by elitists in the music community. I don't know the particular reason. It's along the lines of "it's a band 13 year olds listen to".

But I find myself resonating a lot with some of their songs with religious implications especially Collide, almost all of the songs in that album are peak lyrically.

I don't know, maybe it's just me who hasn't developed good taste or smth.