u/Summerdays3714

I think I am narcissist. I pretty much know without the diagnosis. Lies and betrayal. Admiration seeking. Low empathy. And when some of this came out I still lied to my husband for years. Now that everything is out I still lie or go around things he already knows. I know it’s a decision but it feels like automatic. I am so convinced the next conversation I’ll be calm and be better but never are. I am not only doing this to my family but screwing myself. There is no reason for it it’s all out there. It’s like just be different. If you want to change you will. Why doesn’t it feel that way. I am probably being a narcissist even posting this. Anyone else come out the other side and made a change and any advice ?