How to come to terms with not being able to have another baby.
Hello!
I guess I’m coming here to see if anyone has been through this and is somehow managing to come to terms with things better than I can.
Every month, I find myself crying and mourning the life that I long for.
I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful son who is 6 but, I desperately would love another baby.
I’m so so very grateful for what I have but it hasn’t been easy for me getting here. It took us 3 years to conceive our son and, I was extremely poorly during pregnancy and birth and near organ failure, being rushed in to have my son as a matter of emergency.
Since having our son, we have tried many a time for another baby. My son often asks if he will have a bother or sister.
I have suspected endometriosis as well a fibroids ( growths in the womb) so fertility has been a delicate subject. My husband was tested and he’s got healthy swimmers so, it’s just my body causing issue.
Each month has been so hard, every time a period comes, I feel like I’m mourning the loss of a baby that never happened. This has massively impacted my mental health and as much as my husband and I would love a baby, we decided to put a stop on trying.
Recently I came off some medication which was for
My fibroids. Since coming off this medication my hormones have come back thick and fast, as have my monthlies. I guess this has made my body feel that a baby is now possible again and has bought back all the feelings of yearning for that baby again.
I asked my husband if we should open that capture again and he has explained that he has come to terms with it all and that he doesn’t think it’s a good idea.
It’s so tough, I have no control over my body but I feel responsible for it not behaving as it should. I am 35 and although that’s not old, it’s not young either. I do feel that, the closer I get to menopause the more I’m going to have to accept that it’s over but I’m really struggling to let go of this chapter. I’ve always got hope that it’s not over and it will happen again for me.
Has anyone been through this feeling themselves? Everyone I know has had no issue in conceiving and people make it look so easy. I don’t know what I’m hoofing for in posting this but I don’t really have anyone I can talk to.
Sorry for the essay.