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I do not remember my CSA, but have pieced it together from symptoms, medical reports (there was a serious suspicion and I was taken under by psychologists, doctors, in arrangement by the child protective services), and realizations psychotherapy.-. I am struggling to really believe myself and to go forward because I do not have any memories. Have anyone been in the same situation? Were you able to retrieve memories, and how? What do those memories “look like” - visual, emotional, bodily? I’m sorry if I’m asking a triggering or stupid question. Best ❤️

Hi!

I discovered my csa (was repressed and gaslit) just 3 weeks ago. My therapist is now going on vacation and I have been spiraling a bit, drinking more alcohol, and feel really unregulated in my nervous system. I want to quit alcohol completely and to create a practice during the 6 weeks that my therapist is away.

What are some somatic practices that are easy accessible, and that people have found helpful?

Other tips are also highly welcome!

I was abused several times at around 3 years old. Just discovered this at 36 y/o: through intensive psychotherapy, memories and lastly.. medical reports from the time. My daughter is approaching the same age as I was, so I guess this might be triggering me as well.

Edit: thank you so much everyone for your thoughtful answers, I appreciate it!!

Hi! Something I never thought would happen to me has happened - I have realized through analysis, reading, memory, and a million bits and pieces of my life - including (lastly) reports from medics and psychologists in my childhood, that I was abused by my father at three years old. This is still fresh and we are going through the clinical notes (+medical notes) from around this time. My therapist (analyst) is neutral.. asking questions here and there. But neutral.i think he’s a relationalist - we talk all the time about our relationship and my reaction to our relationship. This has proved beneficial and led to me discovering this! But now I feel like I would need a bigger reaction to have been raped by (most likely) my father at three years old. Any thoughts from the analysts here? Or others? Ps: yes, I know - transference - could you tell me something more/else please. Best ❣️

Any recommendations on books regarding the mother infant dyad? Symbiosis, separation etc. I’ve ordered some Margaret Mahler, but would be very happy to get more recs!