How to make good choices
I know I am probably going to get trashed for this as its a me problem. But I am going to ask anyway.
HOW do YOU make good self control choices?
For context. I am 37 years old (38 in August) and about 375lbs. I have a BMI of 50.7 and my BMR is 2592. So my calorie deficit goal is 500. Setting my total to 2092cal per day and I TRY to maintain that, but not well.
Long-ish walking is hard because my back starts to hurt. I go to the gym 3-4 times a week and do weight machines. I've tried Metformin and Phentermine separately, they work amazing at stopping food noise but the side effects were insane. Metformin I was so backed up it was unreal. Phentermine I didnt sleep for 3 days.
I do like to go out to the bar once every 2-4 weeks for an evening of drinks. Usually a few 7&7s. I do not smoke anything, ever. I have a C-PAP for sleep apnea.
I Cant get a GLP1 because my A1C is only 5.7 (pre-diabetic and just barely that) so insurance wont cover it. Im afraid of getting screwed over by things like Ro, and Mochi, etc...
Its 100% a lack of self control but Idk how to overcome that. So how do I train myself to have better self control?
During the day M-F, I can do great. Fairlife Protein drink (42g complete protein, 230cal) for breakfast and another one for lunch. So only about 460cal consumed before dinner. At dinner, I can also do pretty well. Decent portion control.
But from about 7:30pm to 10:30pm (bedtime), I want to eat the kitchen. Same applies on weekends.
Idc if its chips, snacks, candy, leftovers, etc.
And just "keeping it out of the house" doesnt work because I find myself placing an uber eats order or something and those are really bad choices like candybars, Mcdonalds burgers, Ice Cream, etc.
Basically I have no self control between 7:30pm and bedtime around 10-10:30pm or on weekends.
Judge me, make fun of me, but I just need to find a way to stop that and just trying on my own isnt working.
Help