My T is CBT and DBT informed and I feel like I never really know what to talk about. What are some of the things you discuss with your T?
Just looking for some advice on how to get the most out of my sessions.
I've been seeing my therapist for about ten weeks now. I feel awful that I don't think I'm making any progress. My T says just being present in therapy and talking about how things are going and how I'm handling things is progress enough and that we don't need to measure progress from therapy like I would in my work environment. However, I feel like it's just a matter of time before my T retracts that statement and gets so fed up with me that it ends everything.
I have a gigantic fear of feeling happiness because I don't want therapy to end (it's only been 10 weeks and I have like a 20-step objective plan that I wrote as a guide for therapy). I literally forced myself to have a bad weekend just to kill the calmer and less sad vibe that I had been feeling for a few days. I've even talked to my T about my fear of therapy ending before I'm ready for it, and they told me even when we get to that point there's a maintenance phase and it just kind of made me feel afraid, thus leading to my negative mood.
Now I'm going to go into my next session and explain how awful this weekend was and that I spiraled and I just don't want to disappoint my T. I'm just looking for someone to really tell me it's okay to go backwards in therapy and disappointment is just part of the messiness that I need to work through.
Does anyone have any advice or been in a similar situation?